I watched Eat Pray Love yesterday with Julia Roberts (she was in it, not with me) and I really enjoyed watching it. This post has some text that you might consider spoils the movie – if you haven’t watched it.
It told the story of a woman who was unhappy in herself and her relationships and went on a journey to find herself by losing herself (sorry if that sounds a bit cliched, it was better than that!).
It talked to me about a lot of things; You don’t have to go anywhere to go on a journey, we cling to things that we don’t need, there is pleasure in doing nothing. And the movie also unleashed some feelings of vulnerability which were expressed in my dreams.
I am 27 days into this journey, which I started the day after my mum’s funeral. Every day I have written something and it’s been very therapeutic to do so. The intention was always to blog every day for a year and I believe that was implied in the title of the first post. And I have found out some things about myself that either I didn’t know or had forgotten.
- I can commit to things and see them through
- There is pleasure in making a decision and sticking to it
- You can achieve a lot, one small step at a time
I’d like to quote something from the end of the movie. If you haven’t see the movie, I hope it won’t spoil anything for you, but it does kind of summarise it, so don’t read on if you’re worried about the spoiler.
In the end, I’ve come to believe in something I call “The Physics of the Quest.” A force in nature governed by laws as real as the laws of gravity.
The rule of Quest Physics goes something like this:
If you’re brave enough to leave behind everything familiar and comforting, which can be anything from your house to bitter, old resentments, and set out on a truth-seeking journey, either externally or internally, and if you are truly willing to regard everything that happens to you on that journey as a clue and if you accept everyone you meet along the way as a teacher and if you are prepared, most of all, to face and forgive some very difficult realities about yourself, then the truth will not be withheld from you.
I am 27 days into this journey, there are days when I don’t know what to say in the approx 30 minutes I carve out to do this, there are days when I don’t know why I am really doing this or where it will lead. But it’s ok to not know what, why or where.
I am sure in time that I will learn to feel comfortable with uncertainty and safe with vulnerability.